It was a LONG week

Goodness bless my friends who have been amazing through all this. The ex-roomie for checking in on me and taking me to a neat little place called Vines on Friday night. The middle of the week wasn't as bad but by the end of the work day Friday it was. Saturday was shopping therapy and spending way more than I probably should have on clothes. Sunday my wonderful friends took me to the melting pot for a fabulous dinner.

Here's to hoping everyone had a better week than me and that the job gets better!

I should have asked for more money.

I am having a bit of trouble adjusting to being a boss and while I only have one direct report I have been told what is expected of me and it is to be a leader to the entire team. There are a few people feeling jealous of the things I am being given. They are obviously ignorant of the expectations that have been joined with those things.

I am feeling frustrated and lonely. I suppose it isn't anything that shopping therapy won't fix. I am very much looking forward to the NYC trip. I also know there is a Houston trip in my future. Oh and my travel luck returns for that one -- mid summer.

Greener Pastures

If the saying is true then today should be my first day in greener pastures. I should be getting ready but I think I got up too early and the orientation is at the office that is closer to me. I have a half day at this office and my boss was going to let me have the rest of the day off but her boss stepped in and nixed that. I have been warned about her and I am hoping it isn't as bad as I think it could be.

Thursday night my friends from the old job took me out and we had just a hoot. There was pool, shuffleboard, bowling and MECH Warrior. I found a mech that really agrees with me and won despite the boys that play army games for hours a night being part of the crowd. I held it together fairly well and only one person came close to making me cry but I didn't lose it until I was 5 feet from the door and alone. At my goodbye lunch one of the girls drew a picture using crayons and the tablecloth that is just precious. I am going to frame it.

I suppose I should finish getting ready. Hope all is well with everyone.

The Water Cooler

I have had some really interesting conversations with my coworkers lately.

I was asked today if I would mind combining my going away lunch with someones birthday lunch. It is someone I have always liked and got along with, but it's hard not to like him because he's just so laid back.

Me and two other coworkers proved that we are so white it isn't even funny. I did make that comment and they agreed.

I was involved in a conversation that was a harassment lawsuit waiting to happen in the wrong audience. We all have worked together a long time so we knew it was alright. For the record I was doing more listening than talking because the boys were not playing nicely with each other :).

I was told I need to be more of a ho and that he wasn't going to let me see his wife anymore because I put defiant ideas in her head.

I had at least two people come to my desk and gasp when they caught me actually working. I won't get everything done but I should at least get a huge chunk done.

Living

I just dropped my folks at the airport and it was wonderful to have them out here. I miss having them closer but neither of us are willing to move so what can you do? My daughter of course had them charmed from the first moment they were all together. I got so much done around the house this weekend. Electric lawn mowers just rock!

I do get to go to NYC next month. One of my friends is going to come with me so I am really excited about it. The new boss has been just awesome and I really hope that is a trend that continues. I got another call today about a job that is one my co-worker just took for the same company doing the same job. She took a contract to hire, they talked to me about a full time one :). I am now in the position of being able to recommend to him someone from my current job who I know is looking. It's a strange thing honestly. I think I have someone in mind but it's a strange thing to be in that position. The recruiter of course had to ask if he could woo me from the other offer I got. He admitted I had a very good offer and that he couldn't come close enough to it.

I think this Friday will be incredibly hard for me, and one of the saddest days I have ever had. I have been a bit of a mess lately just with all the change, so if I haven't been in touch as much I apologize and please just get in touch with me :).

Whoot!

We should have enough people for a softball team! Why is it so hard to find girls that will play? I would be subbing for a friend of mine if I didn't have my girl on Thursday. I have missed playing and it will be awesome to see the usual suspects from my job. I am really going to miss them. It would be easier if I disliked my job or my co-workers, but that just isn't the case. I hope a year from now I can look back at this choice, and feel confident that it was the right thing, because right now it is the second hardest thing I have ever done.

They Don't Know

I am hating leaving my job. I know that I really should but there is still that part of me that hates to quit anything that just is dying in all of this. I came into work this morning to see that co-workers either late Friday or over the weekend decided to use my white board to tell me how much they are going to miss me. They don't know how much harder that makes things.

And I Jumped.

I did it. Yesterday I am such a wuss that I got all sorts of emotional when I was writing my resignation. I really don't hate my job. I enjoyed it truly, but I have some big concerns and well when you know your co-workers are making 15-20K more than you it makes you a bit bitter. My company was very cool about it and did offer to match it but then where do I go from there? The company is little and getting smaller each year.

Someone pointed out to me that this was the last in the wiping the slate clean and making my life different. Call it what you like but I am terrified.

My new boss called me yesterday and she was just so wonderful. She started by saying I know you have a little girl and if you can't travel I understand, but we have this managers conference in NY next month and I'd really think it would be great if you can make it. I mentioned this to my developer and she's like -- WE ARE SO GOING! She talked me into going the weekend before the conference and hanging out with her. She is checking with the fiance to see if she can go.

I found out today they have tuition reimbursement. It will probably have to wait until KK is a bit older though.

Part Blonde Tip # 106

I have never done a drug test before and I didn't know my new job would require it so let me count my sins --

1) I had a couple poppy seed muffins on Monday as I had them left from Sunday which I had for breakfast that day too!

2) I wasn't thinking this morning and took some Advil cold and sinus which has of course pseudoephedrine. I thought of that moments after I swallowed it.

3) Rumor also has it that curry chicken can play havoc with the test and of course I had that for lunch today!

Here I am thinking all day that I am going to show up as an addict to Opiates and Amphetamines plus whatever the curry shows up as. Oh Joy! I have 48 hours as of tomorrow morning to take the test.

I freak out this much when I don't do drugs I wonder how it must feel if someone really did.

Part Blonde Tip # 105

So I am a bit under the weather and when I got up to take care of KK I washed my hands before going into her room in the middle of the night. I figured that I had not dried my hands enough which is why she was a bit damp. Turns out instead that at some point in time her diaper shifted and she was wearing it around her leg which does no good really. By the time she was up and out of bed this morning the diaper issue was OBVIOUS. Needless to say she had a bath this morning before daycare and I was much longer getting out the door then I would have liked.

Bright Shiny Money

Yesterday I got a job offer from a competitor. 40% salary increase with 401k matching and 13 miles from home instead of 26. My co-worker ( department of 3 ) turned in her notice yesterday. This means it is likely my company might try and match my offer. Now the only question is what do I do, if they do? I started out saying it was all about the money and now .... I hate being a quitter. Am I really ready to manage people, even if it is only 1 or 2 accountants?

I hope there is an easy answer because right now the choices all seem hard. It probably explains why I have been up since 4 am, because once I make the decision it will be done.

TMI

I am posting here to say I have been doing too much posting here. I'll be posting less because I'd rather if people want to know what is going on with me they talk to me.